So This is 40

Not feeling so forty and fabulous on my 4oth.

Well today is my fortieth birthday. Yep you read me right. I’m officially 40. I don’t look it right? Well thanks to modern medicine, a healthy diet, exercise, and AMazing Mazmanian genes, I have managed to keep myself looking and feeling young. However there is something about turning 40 that really gets me thinking. Geez I’m half-way to 80! I remember my Dad’s 40th Birthday and thinking to myself, “My Dad is OLD!” Anyone else think that? We had a huge ‘Over the Hill’ Birthday for him. Now-a-days that’s a huge no-no but that’s not what is really bothering me. I guess it’s a combination of everything. Burnout, pandemic, work, family, and turning 40. I have never been a fan of my own Birthday but love to celebrate everyone else’s birthdays. I love giving others the attention they deserve but when that attention is on me I get uncomfortable. I’m not sure what it really is. Perhaps it’s been the many years of the past birthdays and all the disappointments I had to endure on my birthday that led me to this conclusion but I prefer to have my Birthday go unnoticed. I enjoyed a quiet, low-key, very little attention Birthday. I stayed home and cleaned. Did some Scentsy work and hung out with my family. Sure I celebrated at night with my kids. We had a lovely dinner prepared by Nathan and I and even enjoyed a nice Vanilla Cake. It was perfect in my eyes. Those who really know me and love me wished me many wishes. I was so happy with that. But man I’m 40! It’s so weird to think this AND I know there is more to life than a number but 40!?